Just a quick post tonight.
When I was in the depths of the most difficult place in my life 16 years ago, I wrote - A Lot! I journaled, I wrote poetry, and I prayed. I was scared, I didn't know east from west, right from left. I was walking through a space of life that I had never walked through before - making choices that I knew were not wise but afraid of the choices I would make otherwise. I guess you could call it the valley of death.
I have long lost the original poem I wrote, but below is the essence of the poem that I was just thinking about tonight. It changed my life. I recognized in that time that I needed to Live. To Live meant not giving up to the fear or the loneliness, that I was walking through but to embrace the space I was in. At times to Live meant to explore, try new things, and be with others. At times to Live meant embracing tears with a welcomeness. The tears meant I was alive - but not to remain there - to move beyond the tears and into the joy of the unknown future.
To Live meant to recognize that God, the creator of the universe, the one who counsels, and gave up His life for me knew my future and although I didn't, I could embrace in His faithfulness, His goodness, and His mercy. And in the Living, I could step into life without fear and enjoy Living in His creation.
To Live meant that I recognize that I have life and the life I have was meant for a greater purpose than myself. I could laugh in the face of adversity. I could stand strong in the face of fear. I could love in the face of distrust.
In the end, recognizing that to not Live Life was Worse than Death is what brought me back to Life. It is what brought me out of misery. And although I didn't have any more answers than before I wrote the poem, I will never forget, that God's gift of poetry to me in that night was to forever Live Life.
Since that time, Life has become synonymous to God and to Live means to Live for Him but at that time, to Live Life meant to move beyond my pity. I pray that if you are not Living, you would choose to Live Life - never let a day be wasted. Adventure is everywhere - whether it is a car accident, a grocery store trip, a cleanse, a video game, or traveling to the remotest place on earth, you can choose Adventure at every turn.
Live Life
When I was in the depths of the most difficult place in my life 16 years ago, I wrote - A Lot! I journaled, I wrote poetry, and I prayed. I was scared, I didn't know east from west, right from left. I was walking through a space of life that I had never walked through before - making choices that I knew were not wise but afraid of the choices I would make otherwise. I guess you could call it the valley of death.
I have long lost the original poem I wrote, but below is the essence of the poem that I was just thinking about tonight. It changed my life. I recognized in that time that I needed to Live. To Live meant not giving up to the fear or the loneliness, that I was walking through but to embrace the space I was in. At times to Live meant to explore, try new things, and be with others. At times to Live meant embracing tears with a welcomeness. The tears meant I was alive - but not to remain there - to move beyond the tears and into the joy of the unknown future.
To Live meant to recognize that God, the creator of the universe, the one who counsels, and gave up His life for me knew my future and although I didn't, I could embrace in His faithfulness, His goodness, and His mercy. And in the Living, I could step into life without fear and enjoy Living in His creation.
To Live meant that I recognize that I have life and the life I have was meant for a greater purpose than myself. I could laugh in the face of adversity. I could stand strong in the face of fear. I could love in the face of distrust.
In the end, recognizing that to not Live Life was Worse than Death is what brought me back to Life. It is what brought me out of misery. And although I didn't have any more answers than before I wrote the poem, I will never forget, that God's gift of poetry to me in that night was to forever Live Life.
Since that time, Life has become synonymous to God and to Live means to Live for Him but at that time, to Live Life meant to move beyond my pity. I pray that if you are not Living, you would choose to Live Life - never let a day be wasted. Adventure is everywhere - whether it is a car accident, a grocery store trip, a cleanse, a video game, or traveling to the remotest place on earth, you can choose Adventure at every turn.
Live Life
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